.scratch out that checklist.

dont go looking for someone who will tick all the boxes on your checklist...

... because most people don't really know what they really want (or what is honestly good for them) anyway.

thats also when i believe you'd have a greater chance to realize/meet/notice someone who would come into your life and write that checklist for you, AND tick all those boxes at the same time :)

... and when you're fortunate enough to have that happen to you, promise yourself you would love them as hard as you can in this lifetime (feast of love, 2007), because you never know how long (or short) that time may be.

"don't be afraid to love and lose, God made our hearts so brave for a reason."

xox

.a common name.

i recently met someone who has one of the most common names ever.

a very nice person he's turning out to be.. (so far, anyway - touchwood, fingers crossed)

the cute part about it all is now, every time i meet someone who has that same name, i would automatically treat the person nicer. and its seriously just because they share the same name with that nice guy i know.

oh, those lucky bastards.

.two is better than one.

i witnessed something today and had yet another thought about relationships. bear with me kids, i do have other thoughts. I just chose to post about this one because... wait, who's asking?

sooo, moving forward...

I realised another reason why human should come in two.

adding on to what the movie "shall we dance" has said - that everyone needs a witness in life - I kinda feel, everyone also needs someone who understands and knows them enough to speak up/help/give explanations for them when they cant.

now, let me explain with this real life scenario...

today, lady A was telling lady B how she thought lady B's husband was rude to her on the phone. lady B listened and then very naturally jumped to her husband's rescue and started explaining how he's been really stressed about some personal matters and asked for lady A not to take it personally. lady A took what she was told into consideration and instantly felt less offended by what happened.

... and thats what i meant. someone who understands and knows exactly whats happening with u when others don't; and would care enough to explain to others when you cant. and i think thats sweet.

definitions

*two = could also be a very good friend whom you share everything with;

*understand = understands how you usually tick, how u react to things, how your emotions run though your mind and how you'd act when put under different types of pressure and conditions;

*knows you = knows what is really happening with your work, friends, family, health, etc because what happens with/to you is part of them too. :)

but thats just me. :)

---- i got drunk dialed as i was typing all this. i wonder if thats a sign of some sort. hmm. ok, will not over analyze.

goodnight world! x

.the man and umbrella theory.

in light of the recent super crap weather in brisbane, I formed a theory. yes, eyes rolling is allowed if u must.

anywayy....

I recently sought shelter underneath a random dude's umbrella (just to cross a road to the next shelter) when I noticed.. i waited to find a guy with the biggest umbrella. reason being, I wanted to make sure that he had enough for both him and I if he agreed to take me under.

this made me think - shouldn't that be the prerequisite for choosing a partner in life as well?

u know, finding someone who has enough for himself and would be happy to share some with you without leaving himself in the rain - instead of someone who can't give you enough that both your shoulders have to be sacrificed to accommodate one another. or worse, leave himself in the rain just to make sure u're fully sheltered.

honourable yes, but it shouldn't have to be like that.

what say you?

.my weird accent - yes, I'm aware.

perhaps it's cuz I've been meeting lots of new people lately, but this subject has came up too many times for me to avoid talking about it. sigh. last nite, someone said to me -

"in one sentence, you'd have like a whole *forgot the word he used* of different accents! u'd have this American twang... and then your voice would get all cutesy and it'd sound like something else... then you'd end your sentence with an Aussie twang." - gah!

I've also been told its kinda exotic PLUS intriguing. :) which I guess isn't too bad of a comment. better than Sherman (me big brotha) calling me "sesat" (lost).

but mostly, I get "are you American?" - and "are your eyes natural?" (but that's a story for another day)

ok - here's the deal (and the simplest explanation) - I watch alot of TV. American TV, so I guess I picked up the accent from there by trying to "subconsciously" mimic. sounds lame, but hey, as Wynna says, "i said ubconscious wor!!!" :)

PLUS... I'm a bloody top class, grade 'A' conformist. i'm the (sad) combined product of my environment. friends, colleagues, the guy I date at the time, shop people I start a banter with, random people on the streets or in a bar, and so on...

so yea, does that cut it? can I continue being "sesat" (or Exotic ;)) now? :D

ok. time for work. laters homies!! lol

.food for thoughts.

With every break up, you wanna make sure you're new (again) and "Improved" for the next relationship.

Not broken.

So, until you figure out what you're taking (and able to contribute into your new chapter with that new brilliant person) ...and what you're going to leave in the past, hang tight and be good to yourself.

No heart should have to rush from one train wreak to another.

.for 'that guy' in my life.

as usual...
lots to say but cant seem to get the words out.

will try again another day. till then...



... this song just sounds and feel appropriate right now.

enjoy.

... and try to smile - for the ones who cant.


*if you can't see the video, "view original post" :)

.time to realize who's boss!.

it feels like the beginning of a new era.

... and here's a girl who is and will continue to try her hardest to have a complete and full life - great family, great career, great romance, great friends n unconditional self love :)

although... i think to achieve this, i'm seriously gonna have to be more stern and picky with how I spend my time. after all, if u want it all, you will have to make enough time to embrace it all, right? - it can't work otherwise! :)

well, balance is the key. balance with my happiness that is. now... how's this? - less thinking about how my decisions would make others feel, and more asking myself whether i'd feel happier making that decision. (so technically, i'm not gonna do bad to u, because that won't make me feel happy either - so don't worry, i'm not turning into a witch. yet.)

(major selfish statement alert!)

besides, if you haven't already realized, many people DON'T think of how their actions/decisions would make others feel... so why am i always worrying about theirs? :) - whoa. that felt good. good going sherlene! *pats back*

but truth is, life is too short, as my dear friend Aaron has reminded many of us.

so from today, i'm gonna live my life like he did. with unquenchable laugher, limitless fun and with utmost self belief. cuz in the end, thats how you know you've done your best - for YOURSELF. and at the end of the day, that's what counts. :)

prabhaks - your strength will continue living in many of us, buddy. you've taught us all well. i won't ever stop missing you!

taken: 20th january 2006.