.sherlene's guide.

... on "what NOT to do on day #3 of losing someone precious".

1. don't go out and get smashed.

2. don't compare every guy u meet/see with your ex.

3. don't throw up in your friend's car, handbag, jacket, clothes, your own hair, face, dress...

4. don't pass out and make three friends carry your dead weight home.

it doesn't help make you feel any better.

To Do

1. thank god you have awesome friends.

2. don't f*ck up and hurt someone you love ever again.

3. bury yourself in a hole. thats where you belong. (for now anyway)

***

.day #2.

I'm suffering serious withdrawals.

I may need to tie myself up to refrain from doing stupid things.

I feel a million different emotions surging through my body. One in particular is driving me crazy... Can't tame it. It's making me go nuts!!!

OMG.

***

.glass half empty.

I'm down - and that's a serious understatement.

someone - please shed some light :(

***

In summary...

I went from here...

To here...

And now I'm here...

... So, what happens now?

Okay, Step 1:

Breathe & Reboot.

Step 2:

Stay in denial for a while.

Step 3:

[still trying to figure it out]

***

.intuition?.

hmmm.

i smell something cooking.

... and i get the feeling i'm not gonna be too happy with whats in store.

.wish i never had to post this.

my entire drive home tonight, all i could hear in my head was...

"how's that 5th gear going for ya?"

if that didn't make any sense, its cause you missed out on getting to know this one amazing person... that has 'by forces of nature (and my downright stupidity)' chosen to walk out of my life.

tonight, i found a new definition for the word 'cold'.

Cold (v.)

- when love is taken away from you.

i'd love to hit the rewind button right about now. :(

.slip of the tongue.

*couple walks out of a pub after a couple of after work drinks*

*boyfriend pulls out his phone*

gf: "is it Elle?" - she teases. *inside joke*

*boyfriend shows his screen to girlfriend - there were no notifications*

bf: "no one loves me.." - he playfully whines.

gf: "I do"

*both went silent upon realizing what was just said*

bf: "I'll take that"

***

.its all smiles.

somehow i feel myself believing it more and more every day that he really does wanna take care of me... like, good good care. the TLC kind. :)

...and i'm liking it.

:)