.reality ouch-ess sometimes.

some people can't accept that the hardest part isn't finding out whether he's the right one, but rather to accept that he isn't.

I turned 25 a couple of days ago. not sure what it means to me mentally or emotionally, but what I do know is - from now, I'm gonna try harder to be better to myself. you know, to really look out for ME.

my NY's resolution is to "not sweat the petty things" - and perhaps, "not pet the sweaty things" as well. :) I'm thinking that should be a good place to start, right?

I also feel this year will be alot about cherishing friendships. my recent trip home has definitely made me realize the importance of friendship, both old and new. many bonds were restored and strengthened - and it just made me realize how therapeutic it can be for the soul.

afterall, no one should walk their lives alone. isnt happiness best when shared?

:) thank you for blessing me with true friends. ones who would love me for my shortcomings and make the extra effort to continue doing so when it gets hard. xox

.trust your friends, he says.

today was different...

it was a day where two good friends found time to just go with the flow in a secret search for a little bit of relaxation. great news is, we found it. together.

after leaving AP's house today with a heavy heart, we hopped into the car and drove into a day of "no plans" - and eventually found ourselves sitting in two big comfy chairs, getting a full hour feet reflexology (ok, more like a 45 minutes reflex and 15 minutes shoulder massage)

- and despite having to fight the urge to yell out from the pain caused at several pressure points in our feet, (apparently we both have internal head and back problems) we both knew we really needed this.

sigh. best yet, it only cost us AUD$12 after conversion - including tips :)

... really need to do it again.

and perhaps next time, a full back massage.

thanks for today, Ivan :) tomorrow will be another day to fight the battle with AP. we need to be in our best form :)

.i pray you're listening.

please, may there be miracles out there.

hearts are breaking, for a kind soul has been put to a very hard test. may he be given abundance of strength and courage to face this hardship. I hope he knows we have utmost faith in him.

AP - we love you. don't give up.