December 27, 2006

.Goooood Xmasieee Football Nite.

Great Day!!
Boxing day is fuNn!!

(Ignoring the fact that I blew my one week's pay in one day,
and in one shopping mall...

Although Im beyond thrilled to have bought myself an MU 2007 Calender)

I didn't get to watch my guys in action tonite.
Foxtel is such a hussy!
How can they NOT play Man Utd's match?!

But anyway,

Man Utd v Wigan

Results at FT: MU 3 - 1 Wigan

(Missed a penalty,
but managed to strike an instant rebound,
and netted that friggin' ball!)
woOoo hoOoo!!

He's awesoMe!!
4 goals in 4 days!!
Great Bod. Good Looks.
Breath-taking smile.
Heart stopping twinkles in his eyes....
What more can you ask for?!

And to make the nite even sweeter,
Check this out:

Chelsea 2 - 2 Reading : Thus increasing MU's leading gap by 4 points & 13 goals!!

Blackburn 1 - 0 Liverpool : makiNg it another 3 points harder for them to catch up!!

*whoOo hoOoo*

MeLLy MeLLy ChristmaZzz peepz!!

and hey,
Check out below and loOk what my beloved was up to during Xmas.


Whats Not to Love?

December 20, 2006

.in a nutshell.

ooH... Im so sleeeepy.
Gonna hav to wake up at 9am tomorrow cuz Im taking my sister to Gold Coast.
Still not sure what we'll be doing there.
Just hope I dont overspend again.
Although chances of that happening is really high.

My holiday so far...
Its been good I guess.

In a nutshell,
I've done all this:

o Blew lotsa money on Xmas gifts for my family.

o Xmas tree is up and standing and very sweetly lit.

o Cleaned my boy's car.

o Drove my boy's car to work everyday,
and driving it everywhere else too.

o Worked worked and worked.

o Made my boy's Xmas gift.

o Lose weight *hMm.. wait. Stractch that.*

o Bought frozen Roti Canai and packet Dahl & Curry.

o Speak to my boy every night.

o Ignored my Corporate Law assignment.
*prays none of my groupmate sees this blog entry*

o Took Sherwynna Ice-Skating.

o Neglected my Summer Course's studies COMPLETELY.

o Failed to plan something for Xmas.

o Might fail to plan something for New Years.

o Failed to return library books and will be fined.

o Failed to even open any of the books I borrowed from the library.

o Repeatedly forgetting to pay my Uni fees.

o Failing to send out my Xmas cards.

o Is yet to spend more money.

- oH... this is getting more and more depressing.

I'm gonna take my shower,
and try to get up early tomorrow,
AAAANDD try to enjoy Gold Coast.

Have a sweet Xmas and a beautiful New Year peeps!

December 11, 2006

December 7, 2006

.kinda... sad.

Groovy left on his 3+ weeks holiday back to Malaysia today.
When I kissed him goodbye this morning,
I didnt really feel anything.
Maybe thats because I was rushing to get to Uni.

But when he called me from the airport during my lecture break,
I started crying.
Only then I realised Im really gonna miss him.

3+ weeks back in Malaysia...
You know what it kinda reminded me of?

MYSELF + Last Year + 3 weeks holiday back in Msia = STRAYED HEART

I admit...
I really did stray when I was back in Msia.
I met up with old friends, and things got blurry from there.


At the back of my head,
I cant brush off the nasty thought of Karma happening to me.

I told Groovy this.
He said Im being dramatic,
and its only gonna be a short 3 weeks.

Well... I strayed in 3 weeks!!
Its not impossiblee!

Then there's the issue about him moving to Melbourne when he gets back.
He got a better job offer there.

Melbourne ----> Brisbane

I dont care what you think,
but for ME,
THATS considered a loNg distance relationship.
And we all know what that means to me.

Definitely a big No-No!

We'll see what happens.

ps: at the moment,
I just need to erase the idea of trying to take pre-caution steps.
Meaning -
Do it before he does it!
*if u know what i mean*

Im so messed up!!

*erase erase erase!!*

.short stuff.

It was a trick to get me posting again!
LoL *self-entertaining*


Ive been dead busy.
Groovy left for Malaysia today.
Sherwynna just started working.
Summer intensive is ending this week.

Im beat!
And broke!


Why is my blog loading halfway?
and why is every thing on the side bar gone?

Or is it just me?

November 26, 2006

.to shut up, or not shut up?.


Summer school started and left me no time for anything.
Thus, I have been very cranky.
Aside from not getting enough sleep,
I feel as if Im not able to spare time for anything else.

Twice in the last 4 days,
This has been my routine:

1. I wake up at 7am for class at 9am. (and can still be late)
2. Class ends 4 straight hours later, and I have lunch with friends/Groovy.
3. I go home and get changed for work.
4. Then I get home at almost midnite and feel exhausted.
5. I have something to eat, then take a shower.
6. I attempt to study but gives up becuz Im too tired.
7. I fall asleep at 3am, and wake again at 7am.
8. Steps 1 to 7 repeats.

The other two days,
One I had 7am class, then came home and slept till 10pm,
Then I did my laundry and etc.
and the other, (saturday)
I got up at 1pm and studied,
Then got dressed for work at 6.30pm until midnight.

Something BIG happened on Friday nite.
I lost my cool and got pissed at my female boss.
I made it pretty obvious,
cuz I snapped and refused to hitch a ride with anyone,
and walked off to take a bus by myself.

As if that wasn't bad enough,
The next day at work,
I was confronted by my male boss,
and I lost it again and pissed him off.

I just got an email noting some changes that they'll be making on cleaning times and that they'll have more staffs during weekends to lessen the individual jobs,
Which goes to show that what I said did impact a little,
That also mean Im in deep shit.

I know I went too far by voicing out the way I did,
Who am I to question and correct and go against the authority rite?
And I shouldn't have lost my temper,
Although I did manage to keep up my usual customer service standards.
But I dont know what came over me.
I just went crazy.

But honestly,
Part of me thinks I did the right thing.
Considering all the sh*t I put up with and had bottled up...
It was high time I leashed out.
(and trust me, Im pretty sure Im not the only one with these feelings!)
BUT on the other hand,
I wish it wasn't ME to leashed out and created all the mess.

Groovy said I'll be walkin on thin ice from now on at work,
and I can really imagine how awkward things would be.
He also suggests that I should quit my job.
As much as I wish things weren't this complicated,
A part of me thinks Groovy may be right.

Need to get up at 11am tomorrow,
and its already almost 5.30am.
Bloody group meeting... *sigh*

November 20, 2006

.have u ever?.

Ever been in a state of mind where you're just too numb to think?
and your heart just feels too numb to feel?

Exam just ended...
And next wednesday is already a new semester for me.
Tomorrow (Monday) would be my last day to party,
cuz I've got a 3:10 - 10:00 working shift on Tuesday.
*not looking forward*

There's a dance party tomorrow.
SHould I go?

Then again, I feel so lazy.
A big part of me just wants to curl up in a ball and be alone.
Im feeling so numb.

There's sooo many feelings that I should be feeling right now,
But all I can feel is numbness.
I dont know if its because of me being tired,
or me being lazy, or me being in denial of whats really going on.

November 18, 2006

.things ive done so far.

After my exams yesterday,
These are the things I've done so far:

1. Wrote another crappy song.

2. Got offered to go back to Msia.

3. Got MISLEAD into believing I could go home this summer.

4. Convinced my sis to come over for summer instead.
(she's coming!!)

5. Bailed on Groovy. (Suppose to go shopping at DFO with him)



November 16, 2006

.holding in the excitement.

In 5 hours..
I'll be sitting for my last paper.
Bless Me.

November 14, 2006

.not seeing what people see?.

I like this top.
But people seem to think differently.

When I wore this top out for dinner once,
Groovy said:
"So which prison did you come out from?"

He was kidding...
But c'mon,
I know better!

Like it or not, 50% of a joke is always true!

Am I really not seeing what people are seeing?

(I know the horizontal lines brings out my roundness,
but lets try to see beyond that...)

But really,
It isn't only this top.

Sometimes when I dress up and feel good about how I look,
People tell me,
"Are u feeling sick today? You look weird."

And instead,
When Im in no-mood at all to dress up,
They tell me I look nice.

Am I missing something?

A message to Ivan Lean...
Im not POSING with the phone,
I really was on the line with someone.
(just in case u're still stuck in your poser-fetish lala-land)

November 12, 2006

.im so tired.

Im feeling soOoo Blue.

ALTHOUGH ManUtd bagged another 3 points last nite,
and Ronaldo was the star again,
Today Im feeling awfully gloomy.

Last night I sorted out my medical law notes for the exams,
and I just realised that 4 days might very well be insufficient for me to cover it all.

I've not done well in the assignment,
and another 20% is yet to be determined based on my tutorial participation.
The exam is 60%...
and so far, I need at least 40% to pass this course.
Chances are soOoo verry sliM.

I might as well start crying now.

November 9, 2006

.a declaration.

Just a sudden urge to say this out loud:


- I am looking forward to the day when I can say,
"Im over it. Its time to settle."
But just a seconds ago,
I realised..
"Nope! Not yet."

*lol* I suck.

November 8, 2006

.the spot near my left eye.

Here's an update of that "Green Bean" sized spot next to my left eye.
I think it's even bigger than a 'Red Bean' now.

Thank Goodness I have a fringe that drapes right on top of it.
So it would look so obvious that I've got that disgusting spot.

I went to see a doc today.
James forced me.
But when I got to the clinics,
They were all fully booked until tommorrow.
And I dont have time to see them tommorrow,
cuz that'll be my last day to study for my Friday exam.


Then I've got work on Friday night.
I hope this spot stops growing,
then slowly fades!

.a song for him.

Came across a malay song today,
and suddenly I felt the urge to listen to my old stuff.
I turned on "Dia" by Fauziah Latiff,
and one person came to mind.

My first love.

So... I'm dedicating this song to him.
Its a sad one,
But also sadly, it works for us.

And just in case its not obvious enough,
The (...) are basically the translation of the song.

Dia Lyrics
Artist: Fauziah Latiff

Dia insan pertama yang bertahta
Dia insan pertama yang ku cinta
Dia pernah membuat ku bahagia
Dia yang mengajarku
Tentang erti rindu

(He's the first guy I've ever put on a pedestal,
He's the first guy I've ever loved,
He had made me happy,
He was the one who taught me what missing someone meant)

Dia yang dulu pernah ku sanjungi
Pergi seingga kini tak berganti
Hilang dari pandangan hidup ini
Membawa luka pedih tak terperi

(He was the one I once praised,
Till now, his absense is irreplaceable,
I've lost him in my life,
Leaving me with this bitter pain)

Tiada ku dugaPermulaan yang jernih
Menjadi keruh dengan tiba-tiba
Bisa rintangan antaraku dan dia
Cinta terlarang oleh orang tua

(I never expected that our clear beginning,
would suddenly turn so turbid,
The poison of the obstacles between us,
Our love was fobidden by our parents)

Kini terkilan sungguh rasa hati
Dia tak pernah lagi ku temui
Dia ku abadikan dalam jiwa
Terima kasih atas segalanya

(Now I feel a sense of regret in my heart,
I've never met him again,
I'll keep him eternally be in my soul,
Thank you for everthing)


November 7, 2006

.i think im fine?.

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.i can only hope.

My finger that was caught in the door is better now.
Although there is a permanent buldge where the red box is.
This happened on the 23rd September.

I hope nothing inside cracked.
I hope.

My burn is looking better now.
I dont think it burnt too deep, which is great news.
I think its mainly just the skin that was a little fried.
At least thats what I hope.
Constantly applying moisturiser seems to be helping.
I hope.

My forehead...
Still hurts like a bitch.

Got a scar on it that looks like a little cut.
No biggie... It'll go away. (I hope)
Selina helped me massage the swollen spot,
and then she stuck a 'medicated' cotton on it.
I hope nothing cracked inside.
I hope.

Just for the record,
I noticed there's a maroon dot that is about the size of a green bean thats forming on the side of my left eye.
If it gets any bigger,
I'm getting it checked.
I hope it's nothing though.
I hope.

November 6, 2006

.something to cheer me.

My mood was ugly today.
Especially after I messed another paper today.
A paper I've already messed up once before.
Thank God for this video.

November 5, 2006

.losing balance.

I dont know what wrong with me.
I feel so clumsy.
Everywhere I walk, every turn I make,
I feel as if I'm either falling over,
Or I actually do knock into something.

Its getting me very frustrated...
Once again, I'm crawling into my own little hole,
and wishing the world would disappear.

Im losing balance, both physically and mentally.

I hope this is just all in the mind.

November 4, 2006

.and the injuries continue.

I smashed my face on the door today.
Not really the door... But the side of it.
See the blue line in the pic below? THERE!
And it was seriously FREE FALL.
My arms were not quick enough to support me.

So my entire weight went smashed on the door,

How it happened:
Well... cuz Sheena is leaving back to Msia tomorrow,

She took out her travelling bags.
And becuz her room wasn't spacious enough,
she left it outside our doors.
(Her door is right opposite the bag)
(The bag is the RED figure in the picture)

ANYWAY, the open door is my room.
(clearly... with Ronaldo on the door)
The pink line was where I was walking out from.
(the toilet)

SO basically, I was walking out from toilet,
and the lights were not on.

And as u can see, the light's switch is located right above the bags.
So before I got to the lights,
I tripped on the bag,

Both feet got caught so I had nothing to keep my balance,
and from there,

I just went slamming down.
And thats when my face smashed on that blue-lined area.

In the pic below,
You can see the bruise on my foreheard after the face-slamming event.
This is how it looks after lots of ice and a hot egg.
(you know how people put hot boiled eggs on bruises?)

The blue line on the next pic, on my face, shows where my face was hit.
The swelling on my cheeks and chin were not that obvious.
Although now...
I can still feel the burning sensation.
*sigh* - Shows how flat my face is huh?

Thank God it wasn't an inch closer to the right.
Otherwise my nose would have been smashed.
And I dont have the money for nosejobs.

Whats wrong with me...........................
First I slammed a door on my left fingers,
Then I burnt my right arm,
Now I smashed my faceee........
What's next?!
My legs?!


This is how it looks 2 hours later:
(a golf ball is forming on my forehead)
- and the swollen eyes are from lots of intense crying.

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.please please please.

James gave me a few pointers on how to manage my burn.
I've already did a few wrong things,
But I've tried to make up for it.

Please dont leave a mark... :(

.bad day at work.

I burnt my arm on the crepe machine's hot plate today.

November 2, 2006

.u're in if you're a fan of Man Utd.

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I was never a fan of Puff Daddy, P.Diddy or Diddy.
(who is essentially the same person)
But for the first time,
I like him.

Cuz he's an MU fan.
*whOO hoOo!!*

Glory Glory Man Utd!

By the way,
Check out Ronaldo's hair this way.
Isn't that cute?!
(clearly not asking the guys)

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November 1, 2006

.football on halt.

UEFA Champions League (Group F)

FC Copenhagen v United

Date: Wed 1
NovKick off: 19:45 GMT
Venue: Parken Stadium
Coverage: Match Tracker / Live Radio

Squad: Van der Sar, Kuszczak, Brown, Ferdinand, Vidic, Silvestre, Heinze, Evra, Lee, Ronaldo, Fletcher, Scholes, Carrick, O'Shea, Richardson, D.Jones, Rooney, Solskjaer, Smith.

Too bad...
Its not on TV.
Instead, SBS chose to play the Arsenal match instead.

Chelsea v Barcelona is on at 5.30am.
I dont think its live though.
*wanna kick day-light saving in the butt*

Queenslanders are so left out!!

There's an EPL match this Saturday.
Man Utd v Pompey... 2am kick off.
Then I've got an exam at 8.30am the same morning.


You know what the scary bit?
Last year,
I watched the Chelsea v Man Utd match just before an exam too,
and I failed that paper.
(eventhough Man Utd won)

And you know what?
Im retaking that failed paper this semester.
And coincidentally...
Thats the paper I'll be sitting for after the Pompey match.


I knowwww.....
It's likeeee......
"Haven't u learnt your lesson yet, Sherlene?!"

Life's tough...

October 28, 2006

.PMS exist.

Im PMS-ing.
And trust me...
It isn't an excuse.
Girls do "suffer" from PMS.
(and sorry if that makes the guys suffer too)

But hey,
DO guys know what PMS really means?

(or how it works?)

It's not when the girl is having their period.
(although when they ARE having their period,
they're not very nice too)

... Then again,
there are girls that gets really horny when they're having their period.
I guess you always crave for things more when u know u can't have it.
We're only human.

PMS occurs about a week before a girl's period is due.
For example,
My period is due on the 29th...

I get irritated soOoo easily!
One moment Im fine...
The next I wanna bite your head off!
(Ivan, not THAT head)

By the way,
Not only we get irritated...
But at these times,
We become extra sensitive too.
And we tend to think ALOT...
About our feelings,
About someone we don't like,
About small annoying things that usually never bugs us.

So yea...
This isn't an excuse,
Im very bugged out about something!

October 26, 2006

.the guys (part 1).

Just had a sudden urge to do this.
But first I'd like to say,
This is not meant to offend anyone.
Im just... blabbling.

I was gonna write 5 random things that comes to mind about
each of the guys I'll be listing below.
and the 5 things must be the first things that comes to mind.
Here goes:

Ivan Lean

1. Knows too much about me.
2. Is always there when I need him.
3. Smart ass.
4. Creepy big smile.
5. Flower picker. (its an inside thing)


1. Yahoo restaurant, where we always dine.
2. Has a cheeky smile.
3. Doesn't hug me enough.
4. Could be a great dancing partner,
IF only I can get him to dance.
5. Makes me smile when I think of him.


1. Realllyy loyal to friends. (too loyal sometimes)
2. My inspiration to write music.
3. Someone who'd go out of his way to help others.
4. Doesnt love himself enough.
5. Ice-skating.

James Lee

1. Expressionless. (he probably saw this coming)
2. Looks blur, but isn't.
3. Bad in directions... Big W (haha)
4. I enjoy his choice of music.
5. My messed-up-body-clock buddy.

Carlo Garces

1. My ultimate crush. (non-celebrity)
2. The first to show me the dark side during my teenage years.
3. A stud-muffin... Cool on the outside,
but a true sweety on the inside.
4. Having funny and really crappy (good crappy) MSN chats,
that makes me laugh, cry, and blush all at the same time.
5. Reminds me of Bon Jovi.

J (Jon Chng)

1. Manchester United.
2. Craaaazzzyy long conversations on the phone.
3. Has a way of making me smile everytime.
4. Sings 'twinkle twinkle little star' reaaally badly!
(haha in his defence, he wasn't really putting his heart into it.)
5. Sweet. Reli sweet.


1. My first love.
2. Cowwies and Goaties... *sigh*
3. Its been 5 years since I last saw him.
4. Would reli like to see him again.
5. My broken heart.

Kelvin Chee

1. Primary six, behind the school canteen.
2. Upper-star and tattoos.
3. 25 kisses.
4. Meeting him again, and noticing the piercing below his lip.
5. Fun to flirt with.

Chris Kia

1. Love letters.
2. Micheal Learns To Rock's 25 minutes.
3. Wondering if he kept my ridiculous photos from Primary sch.
4. Him throwing his sandwich's salad at me.
5. He's so cutee...

Cristiano Ronaldo

1. Ever so talented!
2. Blooody bloooody hot.
3. Makes any shirt, bad, shoe, glasses, jeans.. etc... look amazing!
4. I wanna learn to speak his language.
5. GOD.

Wayne Rozario

1. Kawasaki Ninja motorbike.
2. Mount Coot-Tha and our date.
3. Carrying up the stairs.
4. Us, out the backyard, under the moon.
5. ... he's still getting hotter.

Emyne Ng

1. My 'LeNnie' star at the International Star Registry.
2. Summer Catch.
3. Awesome listener.
4. My McDonalds buddy.
5. A true friend.

Mouzam Mosheen

1. Promised to bring me clubbing.
2. He's got a grin that makes him look really mysterious.
(in an oh-so-hot way)
3. Makes me weak in the knees when he plays pool.
4. Looks even hotter in a cap.
5. He's gonna be a pro-footballer,
and will someday introduce me to Ronaldo.

- Ok...
Im getting tired.
and I need to study.

October 25, 2006

.spoilt little girl.

Im a spoilt person.

Last nite (or morning),
I was chatting with James...
We were rambling on and on about our food cravings.
We both wanted Roti Canai / Paratha.
I also wanted donuts.

So this morning,
I woke up,
Got dressed,
and walked to the shoppingtown opposite my place,
and bought 6 donuts.
I ate 3 for brunch.

At nite,
I made Groovy bring me to an Indian restaurant.
Luckily, he was craving for curry as well!
So I managed to eat my parathaa...

When I want something,


Im not THAT spoilt..................... *grins*

By the way,
why cant I pull off the "Blue Eyes"??!

October 24, 2006

.advance australia fair.

Guess what I've been doing for the past 20 minutes?
*hides face behind hands*

I've been singing Australia's National Anthem!
*prepares to be smacked*

You see...
I've been on for too long!
And I came across Anthony Callea and Ricki-Lee,
(while searching for performances by participants of Aus Idol season 2)
both singing the anthem!!

They both sound good ler...
Check it out before you judge me!


Now here's the lyrics if u wanna sing along too!

Australians all let us rejoice,
For we are young and free;
We've golden soil and wealth for toil;
Our home is girt by sea;
Our land abounds in nature's gifts
Of beauty rich and rare;

In history's page, let every stage
Advance Australia Fair.
In joyful strains then let us sing,
Advance Australia Fair.

ok wait...
Lets make this less controversial.
So here, Let me show u where my heart is: (^^)


October 21, 2006

.idol's bobby flynn: a true artist.

I've been trying to watch Australian Idol this season.

Trying means:
1) want so badly to watch it; but
2) it clashes with my working time; therefore
3) i dont get to watch it as much as i wud like to.


Eversince one particular audition when Bobby Flynn came into my life,
*hahahaa... I love my dramaticness*
I knew Idol would be different this year.

He's special.
Very much different.
And very bloody talented in his own way.

He's not oh-wow looking...
and most people wouldn't think he's hot,
But honestly,
watching him sing made me see him differently.

In fact,
I begin noticing how beautiful his eyes are.
Its soooo full of soul,
I can feel myself drowing in them.
and that voice...

Too bad.
Last week.
Australia was a dumbass.
and Idol lost him.

Watch his "touchdown" performance here:
  • Bobby Flynn's Touchdown Performance

    Bobby's Audition (singing his orginal song - *heart melting*)
    - also the day Bobby stole my heart:

  • Bobby Flynn's Audition
  • October 19, 2006

    .my fav disney cartoon.

    I just watched "The New World" today.
    (I think thats what its called)

    Its basically the "Real life" story of Pocahontas.
    It was oooookay.
    But I personally loved the disney cartoon version much better.

    In fact,
    Thats actually my faaaavourite disney cartoon.
    Odd enuff,
    For such a pro-lovey-dovey person like me,
    I chosed as my favourite disney cartoon,
    one of the few stories that didn't end 'happily ever after'.


    Maybe its a sign.

    But yea... I loved Pocahontas.

    I'm currently listening to:
    Sixpence Non The Richer's version of "Don't dream its over".

    Suddenly I cant wait till James get married.
    I wanna showcase my singing. ^^

    Maybe Ivan wont mind me singing at his wedding too.
    ooH... and my GSG...
    Thats 6 weddings...

    October 17, 2006

    .my sunday guy.

    Just before my supervisor and I closed the shop tonite,
    A bunch of guys walked up to buy gelato.

    Among them were a couple of guys who use to come every Sunday night.
    I particularly remember one of them,
    Not only becuz he was the cutest,
    But also because he had to taste almost every single flavour before deciding!

    Tonite when he came,
    We chat a little...
    He asked if I worked every night,
    And I said no...
    Usually Sunday nights,
    But this Monday night was an extra.

    And when his friends started teasing him about me,
    I told them, "Yea, he's my Sunday guy."
    I guess that started the whole thing...
    His friends started making comments,
    and getting all funny and etc...
    And I didn't make things better,
    cuz I was shooting them back with sarcastic remarks and etc.

    (I wouldnt really call it flirting... *ehem*)

    In a way, it was annoying becuz if not for them,
    We could have bloody closed the shop already!
    BUT on the other hand,
    they were fun.

    Not to mention,
    At the end,
    When he left tips,

    he specifically pointed to me,
    Looked me in the eye, and said,
    "This is for You."

    When he said that with those sparking eyes,
    I had to mentally calm myself to prevent an embarrassing blush.

    You see...
    He's got really beautiful eyes.
    Loooong lashes... and sparkly...
    And he's quite tan.
    I cant put my finger on what race he is...
    But he reminds me of dudes like Jay Hernandez.
    So you can imagine...
    He's hot.

    My Sunday guy.

    Ok. Now I can blush.

    October 16, 2006

    .my RYP.

    Do you think the word "Panties" sound stupid?

    Cuz I feel that there are many stupid-sounding words out there,
    and Panties is definitely one of them.

    I've got this red and yellow P...
    from herein known as my RYP,
    that I feel is my Manchester United lucky charm.

    Not only becuz the colour matches...
    But also becuz.........

    Suddenly this doesnt really seem like an appropriate thing to blog about.

    October 14, 2006

    .constantly switching?.

    Both Yesterday and Today,
    I've been placed in the position,
    where a question is asked...
    and Im forced to answer that question,
    which would only reflect one thing:

    "She's always changing boyfriends."


    My ex housemate (Julie) called.
    She said,
    "eeeei... new boyfriend ahh?"...
    Cuz the last time I saw her,
    I was still kinda with Shaz.

    Then today,
    I met Joe...
    Joe is a Hong Kong friend I've had since foundation.
    He introduced me to his girlfriend,
    and referred to me as:
    "My friend's girlfriend."

    Then I went...
    And he said, "no?"
    And I said...
    "ooH... shaz issit? umm... no more liao."
    Then he said,
    "OoH okaay... So are u seeing anyone now?"...
    And I said,
    "umM... yea."

    I dont change boyfriends as often as it seems!!
    There are periods where I stay/remain singlee!!
    It's just...
    Some people dont bump into me during those periods of my life!
    So Unfair!!

    (All this explaining ain't doing me any good, isnt it?)

    But anywayz,
    Today I was chatting with Mouzam.
    Suddenly we started talking about what happened 3 years ago.
    *ehem*... You know... :)
    Can't believe it's been 3 years since then!!

    But it was fun to talk back about it.
    How we use to play pool,
    and how I've always been attracted to him playing pool.
    Girls, you have to trust me.
    When he's playin' pool...
    His "hot-points" goes up even higher!!

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    Mouzam and I are totally fine now...
    Yea, we still flirt, I still find him hot and etc,
    But thats about it.
    We both know that whatever happens,
    We're friends.
    And thats exactly how we both want it.
    Its fun that way.

    But ANYWAY...
    (whoa... I've been using lots of "but(s)")
    Im not really as flower-hearted as it looks rite?

    Groovy and I have officially been together for 3 months.
    That's got to mean something rite?


    October 13, 2006

    .blue, yellow and red.

    Reminder to myself:

    Everyone should be able to relate to this.
    This is a typical scenario involving BLUE, YELLOW and RED.

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    Have u ever been in situations where a friend comes to u when they're upset,
    (sometimes not obviously upset,
    but they're perhaps "bothered" nonetheless)
    And they start telling u things...

    Then... as the 3rd party in the situation your friend tells you about,
    You're able to be the rational one.
    As in,
    You try to consider both sides,
    and come up with reasons why so-and-so happened.

    You tell your friend what u think.
    (wrong move #1)

    She/He gets even more pissed.
    And slowly,
    The conversation takes an odd turn,
    Making it become a problem between You and Him/Her.
    She/He starts attacking you personally.
    (at least thats what you'd naturally feel like they're doing)
    And what you do..?
    You get all worked up,
    and pissed in return!
    (wrong move #2)

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    So basically you're BLUE, and they're RED.


    Ok... from there it gets tricky.
    What happens then is you walk away,
    and you find another friend to confide in. (Yellow)

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    And YELLOW, being the 3rd party would start evaluating the situation from both sides.
    And this is where the problem is usually resolved.
    (or should be resolved)
    Cuz this yellow would reason with you (BLUE),
    Gently reminding you that it started with the 1st person (RED) being pissed.
    And the only reason why RED pissed u off,
    Is becuz they're pissed.
    And ULTRA-SENSITIVE when you guys had the talk.

    And basically,
    When a person is Ultra-Sensitive,
    They dont think rationally.

    Everything you say to them which isn't a sign of you agreeing to what they're saying would feel like an insult or an attack or a means to tell them that they're wrong.
    It doesn't matter if you're being reasonable.
    Therefore if you're not telling them they're right,
    or that you feel sorry for them,
    You're better off not saying anything!
    Because it wont help.

    Thats what I need to remind myself.

    Some people, when they're upset, they just need others to listen.
    So if you dont agree with what they said or did or think,
    Bite your tongue and leave your comments for another time.

    For now,
    Focus on the fact that your friend is upset,
    and You need to be there for them.

    And there's only one way to do that:
    "Stand on their side!"

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    (Its not even necessary to say anything,
    so dont worry about being a hypocrit.)

    So yea,
    After tonite,
    I'd say:

    "Lesson Learnt."

    (altho I cant promise that the next time this happens,
    I'd be able to so quickly rationalise my behaviour and responce.)
    I guess thats why there's always a need for YELLOW.

    October 12, 2006

    .a chat with manny.

    Im at the lab right now.
    Just bumped into Emmanuel,
    and we had a funny chat.

    That doofus is really playful!
    We talked about how I can get my Australian PR hassle-free.
    And how?

    Then he started asking me how much he'd have to pay my parents.
    And we evaluated my worth,
    Considering I've got a clean sheet,
    a degree and I've never been a prostitute.

    And he's pretty happy with the Aus-Msia currency exchange rate.
    Cuz if Im worked out to be worth a million ringgit,
    He'll only have to chuck out half a million Aussie.

    And I'm getting alot out of this bargain too.
    He's got dual citizenship, both Aus and Greek.
    He said I'd be able to get it too!

    Maybe this isnt such a bad plan afterall.


    see how studying law can mess up people?

    October 11, 2006

    .what i dont wanna feel.

    I know I want to write something...
    But I can't seem to put it in words.
    This feeling...
    Its really confusing.
    And embarrassing.
    And I truly dont know what I want...
    and how I'd like to go about with it.

    It's not a very attractive feeling to have.
    It's not a feeling he'd want me to feel either.
    But I can't help feeling it...
    With every word he says...


    It makes me feel so helpless.
    I dont know what to do to make myself feel better,
    and I dont know how to tell him to stop inflicting this on me.
    I feel so weak...
    So tempted to listen to the worst side of me,
    and give up.

    Telling myself,
    "I dont need this."


    It is jealousy.
    Thats what Im feeling.

    October 10, 2006

    .my love language.

    Got this off James' blog.
    I thought it could be useful to find out what I see as the most important factor when Im in a relationship.

    My results:

    The Five Love Languages

    My primary love language is probably
    Physical Touch
    with a secondary love language being
    Words of Affirmation.

    Complete set of results

    Physical Touch: 11
    Words of Affirmation: 7
    Acts of Service: 6
    Quality Time: 5
    Receiving Gifts: 1


    Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

    Take the quiz

    Nowonder the relationships I get into can never survive Long Distance.

    October 9, 2006

    ."can i help you with anything else?".

    I felt something odd while I was working tonite.

    Like all Sundays,
    It was a busy night.
    And almost towards the end of my shift,
    A bunch of young people (about my age) came to buy gelato.

    While they were busy ordering,
    I carried a dessert crepe out to one of the tables.
    As I was making my way back,
    One girl (from the bunch) stopped me and said:
    "can u clean those tables?"

    And of course,
    I replied, "Sure."

    But it was at that moment when I really felt like a worker.
    As in... u knoww.... a worker.

    I cant put in words how I felt.
    It just felt weird.

    Its like,
    when you go to a restaurant,
    You dont really think of the person who carries your food or takes your plates away.

    Cuz they're just... Not important.
    Close to non-existence, until u need something.

    Its like...
    You're treated like u're nobody.
    You're just someone to clean messes.
    Someone who doesn't matter...

    ok ok...
    I guess you can say I felt like a maid.
    Thats stretching it a bit,
    But it's something like that.

    I KNOW thats my job.
    Im not complaining.

    I'm just saying...
    After working there for so long,
    For the first time...
    I actually felt like a... nobody.

    "Clean my table."
    "Take this away."

    Maybe it's becuz they were having lots of fun,
    and I was jealous.

    But yea,
    I just thought I'd write this down,
    Becuz I didn't know that all this while...
    I've always seen myself as "the girl who serves gelato."
    Not one who gets ordered by random people to do/clean/fix things.
    (my boss is not counted)

    Its okie if you think I'm being paranoid,
    Or that I sound like a spoilt brat,

    I'm just trying to share this feeling.

    October 8, 2006

    .beautiful music.

    My current favourite song: I Sing For You
    Performed by: Daniel Letterle
    OST: Camp (2003)

    I sing for you and only you
    Wherever I go I find you
    You’re in the sound of every hello
    In everything I do
    You’re the song I was destined to know
    And I only sing for you

    You went away. I should have known
    You leave so many dreams behind you
    Thought I’d be fine just being alone
    I didn’t have a clue
    But my heart had a mind of its own
    And would only sing for you

    You’re in the sound of the rain
    Clouds in a winter sky
    In a thousand unsaid words
    In a thousand crazy reasons why
    You were meant to fly

    So fly for me and day by day
    I’ll keep hoping your heart reminds you
    Nothing but love can stand in our way
    But love can see us through
    Maybe that’s all I wanted to say
    I will always sing for you
    I will always sing for you

    a very simple,
    but very beautiful song...

    October 7, 2006

    .my DVD marathon.

    I went to bed at 8am.
    I was up watching DVDs.
    I managed to watch 3 in total.

    All 3 were great.

    One of them,
    "Head over heels"
    Starring Freddie Prinze Jr and Monica Potter,
    That one I've actually watched before...
    But I borrowed it from Blockbuster again cuz I saw the DVD on Big W's catalouge,
    and its on sale!!
    I've decided to get it.

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    Then I watched "Camp".
    This movie was different.
    BUT I kinda enjoyed it..
    Maybe its becuz of the music.

    I totally fell for Daniel Letterle when he started singing a song called
    "I sing for you"...
    He's no professional singer,
    But the simplicity of the song bought my heart.
    Maybe it sounded extra good becuz of him.
    *ehem ehem*
    U knoww...

    Its a gurl thing. ^^

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    THEN I watched "The Cutting Edge: Going for the Gold"
    This was a sequel from 'The Cutting Edge'.
    I've never watched the first one,
    But I know it was about the parents of the girl in this 2nd one.

    And the sweet bit was,
    They actually casted the original parents.

    I loved this movie the most among the 3.
    It was great...
    Loveddd the love story.
    Loved the characters...
    Loved the guy. HAHA...

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    Tip to directors:
    A charming leading man can never go wrong!!