.first EPL match of the season: before HT.

oh. so painful. my guys... my team... my united.

BRING BACK RONALDO!!

ooooHH!! ROOOOONEYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!

finaaalllyyy!!!

33'

Man United 1-0 Bermingham

.#7 replaced.

owen will be wearing united's #7 jersey.

its like another cut, slashing through the existing wound in my poor heart when ronnie left on that $80m fame. can fergie be making the right decision? owen? the new #7? really? isn't it too soon??

sigh. i foresee another deep cut when the season starts. when i see owen on the pitch, playing in the #7 jersey. omg. it's gonna be so painful. i still can't believe its true. i still can't believe ronnie is no longer a red devil!

wwwwwhhhyyyy...........? :(

.disappointing day.

well, to be fair, its currently only the first half of the day... but the amount of disappointment i've felt has made me just want to crawl in bed and wake up tomorrow. [with hopes that it'll be better than today]

i guess the whole world now knows that united put up a very weak fight against barca this morning in the UEFA champs league final this morning. i felt its the result of making wrong decisions from step one. *cough*anderson*cough* but oh well, gratz to barca. a truly worthy opponent.

after the match, my guy called and i snapped at him because it sure didnt take alot for him to irritate me that morning. my mood was like piss (like wee wee) after the match, mainly because it didnt suffice to swear at my players, so i ended up complaining about puyol. [sorry barca fans, i HAD to blame someone!] 

ANYWAY... not grasping the "never defend your girlfriend's enemy; i'd rather you shut up" concept [especially when she's obviously just venting her frustration], he told me not to attack puyol for united's loss. granted, the phone conversation ended very abruptly.

i then rushed to my staff meeting in the city, dreading the $6.00 + 2 hours travel for just a one hour meeting. not to mention the pain of carrying around a low mood in a very tired body.

when that was over, i texted my poor bubby and told him i'm sorry for snapping at him. no reply. when i got home half an hour later, i texted him again to ask if he was doing anything today and if i could come over to hang. no reply.

another half hour later, feeling all remaining energy sucked out of my body from watching endless youtube videos, i texted him to say i wont be coming. he then called. apparently he had fallen back asleep after the match. he told me to come, but i truly couldn't find the energy to. (mind u, he lives on the gold coast, 45 minutes drive away) so the conversation again, ended awkwardly... and again, i'm left feeling down.

anyway, in the midst of my melodramaticness... i found a few movies that i've decided to watch aaaand i'm gonna share them with you [the link takes u to their trailer on youtube] -

• obsessed - starring beyonce knowles.
  
• the ghost of girlfriends past - starring matt mcconaughey & jen garner
• the ugly truth - starring kathetine heigl & gerard butler

.football, pcd & love story.

if only i studied IT... i'd be packing my bags to fly to manchester for this job right now. argh! to all web designers out there who are die hard MU fans, good luck!! this is your opportunity!

speaking of the amazingness of MU, they're officially 1 point away from retaining their EPL title! a title hat trick people!! woot wooot!! :) last night they came back from the dead and beat wigan 2-1...

the only unfortunately thing about that match is that ronaldo may be turning into the next beckham. he's truly beginning to piss off the boss man. who dares shout at fergie?! tsk tsk tsk. my boy really needs a knock on the head. & REALIZE HE SHOULD NOT MOVE TO REAL!!! :'(

ANYWAY... i'm addicted to PCD's bottle pop's official video clip. only cause the girls are so sexy. nicole in particular. i love the whole face art thingie she has going on in there. and the winks... im always a sucker for winks.

oooH... borderline sounding gay now. im gonna shut up. just watch -

for the full video. click here.

aaaand... you're gonna call me super outdated, but suddenly, i find myself really liking taylor swift's love story. i just read the lyrics today, and thought, "hey... this is actually really sweet." and really sweet is a good thing. :)

maybe i can get D to play it while i try out the vocals. *hint hint* check it -

Love Story - Taylor Swift

.how'd you feel if your best friend got married?.

6 points clear. yep. united is another step closer to retaining their premier league title. oooH... fulham just equalized against chelsea. HAHA... *touchwood*

ANYWAY...

today at work, two best friends came into the store. one was in the midst of planning her own wedding, and the other was hoping to find the perfect ring and then the perfect timing to hint her boyfriend to propose. :P

it got me thinking... if one day, my bestie got engaged, how would i feel?

#. "shit... is xxx gonna propose to me too?! but.. but... buttt im not reeadddy!!"

#. "shit... sss is getting married... what about me? does xxx even wanna marry me?"

#. "shit... so marriage is on the menu now? damn... im back to not knowing what i want!!!"

:)

has anyone (reading this) already gone through 'watching your best friend (of the same sex) get married?' - how did you feel?

im feeling a little jittery just imagining it. if selina gets married and im not even close, goddamn... i'd imagine myself not being able to sleep at night. lol... seriously.

damn... chelsea just scored another one. 2-1 now. gooo fulham!

.nothing important.

brissie's weather is already getting too cold for my liking and winter isnt even reaally here yet. as much as i don't like being fried by the summer sun, freezing under my doona with icy cold toes aint any better. sigh.

good thing is though, united won themselves the upperhand in the 1st leg of the UEFA semi-finals. although we're only up by one home goal, at least no away goals appeared on the scoreboard. :) me happy.

anywayz, me, ms.no-life-and-no-money has also started a new addiction. thanks to wynna (my dear little sister) for recently purchasing season 1 of gossip girls on DVD. looks like i'll be spending lots of time on my ass in front of the tv.

yep, one couch potato coming up. how attractive. sigh.

p.s. job hunting to date hasn't been fruitful... im keeping those fingers crossed.

.thinking you know doesnt make you right!.

here's a question:

when you're in a relationship, tough times are inevitable. but how many rough times do couples have to go through before they can agree that there're simply too many 'rough times' and that the fact is, they're just not right for each other?

here's another question:

the longer you are in a relationship, the more you'd learn about one another. sure. but why use these "know hows" about each other to start preempting each other's reactions and thoughts? especially the negative things? and using these negative things to make 'negative predictions' of you, giving you no chance at all to prove yourself otherwise?

for EXAMPLE, he says...

"i know you're gonna sleep late and then be tired when you see me tomorrow. if that's the case, i'd be annoyed, so maybe we should cancel tomorrow?"

how its annoying? [if you can't already work it out yourself] : 

x. so if i want to keep u happy tomorrow, i cannot show signs of fatigue at all?

x. so if i don't cancel, it means i'm promising to no keep tomorrow at high energy at all times?

x. so if i do end up seeming tired, you're gonna patronize me and claim your right to be annoyed because of your earlier 'prediction'?

x. ...and then after that, any future plans we have will have to go according to your predictions because you were right the first time?

SORRY. i know i'm overthinking. but i'm just so freakin annoyed. see,  if you wanna express your concerns, how about trying it with a less condescending tone? like, "i hope you get enough rest tonight so we can have lots of fun tomorrow." - how hard is that?

argh. hate it when plans are spoilt before they even begin.

***

ON a completely different note, MU won FC Porto!!! the UEFA champs are soOo staying in the battle to retain their title!! woot woot!! AND... the cherry on the cake? - RONALDO SCORED THE WINNING GOAL! and it wasn't just another goal, it was an AWESOME one! wooOoohOooo!!! my baby is awesomeeeeeeeeeee................... :) :) :)

.time to live out of my dreams.

i need to put an end (for the 192719th time) to this M-L phase... 

although this morning, i actually spent god knows how long living in a dream where him and i were together. (yes, i mean i actually had a dream about him. meaning [in my defense] it was involuntary and subconscious and yarda yarda yarda.)

i dreamt he took my hand under a table in a restaurant where we were having lunch. his touch felt so real. then as i got up to leave, he pulled me into a long and warm embrace.  the odd thing though is when we leaned in for a kiss, he turned away at the last moment with a really sad expression on his face. like he just suddenly changed his mind. he looked somewhat lost or confused... a look i've seen on his face once before (in real life - about a year ago now) when he said something unexpectedly... vulnerable to me... *trying to stop my flashbacks*

To dream that you are holding hands with someone, 

represents your connection with that person. 

Your dream may also reflect anxieties about losing touch with him/her or that you are drifting apart. 

the dream also had episodes that linked to taking showers. both him and i. in my bathroom in my old room in malaysia. SEPARATELY, mind you.

To dream that you are taking a shower in clear, fresh water, 

denotes spiritual or physical renewal or the need to wash a burden out of your life. 

It is also symbolic of forgiveness.

okay. 

time to pack up these mind games/confusions and come back to the real world. because right now, i have someone great in my life. and i will not ruin what i have in my hands for some fantasy that lives more in my head.

my heart should be smarter than that.

p.s. portugal didn't qualify for the world cup 2010? :( nooooo............................

.google me.

i think i've mentioned this before, but every once in a while i like to google search my name to see what comes up... this time, i found something rather puzzling. check it out -

WTH right?? i have no idea how that got there!! and how scary is there huh? - u know, it probably doesnt help that im advertising it on my blog now hey? hmm.

ANYWAY... its almost midnight. 11.54pm to be exact. 6 minutes to Selina's 25th Bday. sheensie and i are gonna go set up her cupcake and candle and 1st present. :) catchya laters!!

p.s. - i had fun at dinner/drinks with u guys tonite! [derek, ivan, eudo, fyin, hon fong & sheens!]

***

EDIT:


26th!!!!! JULY!!!!!! KUALA LUMPURRRR!!!!! ooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOoooooo......

and congratz to my baby Ronaldo for winning yet another Player of the Year Award!!! xxxxx

.a nite for the devils!.

3 points to United for 3 goals at Old Trafford tonite... but the sweetest part of the whole thing is actually bagging those points against Chelski!! :) - we're goin for the title again baby!!! you guys better watch out!!!

ok. time to go back to my routine. its 4 hours pass my bedtime. *eyelids failing*

SLEEP TIGHT MY FELLOW RED DEVILSSSSSSSSS!!!! xxxxx

.hey, can't complain.

finally, a blog layout i can smile at. talk about smiling, did u guys see the smiling moon and matching stars in the sky tonite? u dont get to see something that pretty too often...

another reason to smile: united bagged 3 points last nite. the cherry on the cake however is when chelsea failed to get any points against arsenal. yep, we're coming back up baby!

cookie dough, dough pronounced as "daw" rather than "dow"... another one of sheena's 'intentional' mispronunciation. today selina went into baskin and accidentally ordered it [out loud] with the "daw" and totally embarrassed herself. she also cracked herself up. sheena and i watched her as she whole-heartedly laughed again. that was another reason to smile today.

me ending my nite after a long and nice heart warming chat with carlo; i can't not smile to that fact. :) its been almost 10 years since our imfamous "huNnie buNnie" years. the time when mIrc was the ultimate chatting program, when everyone had a cyberlover, and carlo would leave quit messages that say...

"i luv you FUNkie, but not too much cuz i still wanna luv you more."

tonite, my playlist said my song is: "you can run, you can hide, but you can't escape my love" - escape by enrique iglesias. i wonder who. [lol @ my superstitiousness]

.scattered thoughts.

been listening to gabe bondoc these few days. cant help fallin for his voice. the song he wrote, "YTS"... i cant stop replaying it. :) i posted it here a couple of posts back.

ANYHOO, have u heard of a johari and a nohari window?

my friends have been circulating their windows around. so i thought, "mm... why not?"... so, if you've got the time to be honest, it'd be an honour -

# my johari (positive traits)
# my nohari (negative traits)

(oh.. girls, im sorry, i cant do ur noharis. its too... umm... much. :P)

alrite. im working tomoz. i shud go. im not feelin too great either, im thinking its becuz United just drew their match against everton [1-1], and im annoyed. :( hmmph!

btw... ^^ to sexy smses. :)

.dating resume?.

just finished watching coyote ugly with the girls - a line to remember:

"you are to appear available, but never be available."

anywayz, the girls were talking about one's "dating resume" and how important it is when you "interview" for the vacant boyfriend/girlfriend position. like it or not, unless you're already madly in lust in a person (where u'd already be too blind to see anything or make any sense), your resume will determine whether you actually get your foot in the door or not.

like bosses, people are soooo critical nowadays. and i guess it depends on what kinda boss you have and what their preference is, aaand what type of employee they're looking to employ according to their present need - whether permanent full-time, part-time or casual. hmmph.

i guess your resume will also determine how serious an employer will take you huh? sigh.

here are some possible interpretations (don't quote me on it) -

length of rship:
if your longest r'ship is really not long at all, people would think you're a player. however if its too long, they'd consider you a broken soul with a burdening past. im thinking, maybe a past r'ship of 2-3 years would be considered a good thing though? shows your ability to maintain a long but not too scaring r'ship? hmm.

who ends rship:
if you do most of the time, it shows you're a player. if not, you're a loser. if its always mutual, you're simply lame/ and its really not that believable.

usual reason for breaking up:
if there's a pattern, you have an illness. if there's none, you're full of problems, all over the place, so unsure of yourself, and/or simply a confused soul. how are we to believe you know what u want with us?

flings and exes:
too many means you're a whore/player. none means you're possibly a bad lover.

when ur rship ended:
too recent means you're not ready, too long ago means your past rship could've hurt you really badly and you're likely to be too broken for anyone else. how much time is enough time to heal?

no dating resume:
depending on your age, you could be considered weird. (tip: act like you're a workaholic, that's usually a good excuse)

sigh.
hey, a new song i like. heard this on the radio on my way home from work. not my usual type of music; it could've been my mood at the time. anyhoo...



united just scored against chelsea!
21 minutes; score chelsea 0 - 1 united. ;)

.for derek.

i woke up at 4.30am feeling nauseas today. [no, not pregnant]

so i curled up in bed next to my bin, and missed my united v villareal match, although andy was sweet enough to keep me updated via sms. united drew the match and was unfairly denied 2 penalties. ronaldo was subbed in at 60mins, and was still firey on the pitch. too bad it wasnt reflected on the score sheet. :( berbatov is apparently injured. o.O [hmmph!]

sent mum and dad off this morning. :( *sobs*

anyway, did i mention derek is graduating next week? in sydney? - and me and selina are gonna be there?? HAHA yepsies!! [i dont think derek knows yet either] :) :)

i just decided to book my tickets today, after getting up, and after doing more research and financial planning. there's actually been quite a number of hiccups before we got to this stage, but out of them all, the last hiccup took the cake -

checkout these bits of my itenerary:


now read closely -


wth rite?
serves me right for using a credit card [thanks stan!!] when my brain is half asleep and vomit is threatening to burst outta me. :( - aaaand with the additional upset-ness caused by my parents leaving. sigh.

but, its all good now. *pheww* :) called virginblue, spoke to this really nice man, and he fixed it up for me FOC. :)

sooOo... it looks like i'm off to sydney!! DEREK SWEETHEART, THIS IS FOR YOU! :)

xox

.will miss.

the parents are leaving tomorrow. morning flight. cant believe its been 2 weeks. im crying already. :( like everyone else, i hate goodbyes. especially to loved ones. i also hate the fact that it'll be months/years before i get to see mum and dad again. :(

tell u what i also hate? drivers who thinks its ok not to fix a gaddamn third break light on their friggin car. i spent a good couple of minutes swearing at a merc today because of that reason. dad says i have a serious case of road rage. i call it PMS. hehee... but u see, they're bloody hazardous on the road. im calling the cops the next time i see one. i dun care.

on a different note, my family went for dim sum in the morning, then spent the arvo shopping at garcit. mum bought me 2 pairs of work shoes, which i love so so much. they're really good ones too (and $$-y). but its suppose to be good for my weak ankle. thanks m&d!!

oh... guess what mum also did? we were chatting with this sales guy at Godfrey's, when mum just found it necessary to ask the guy if he was married - to which his response was, "no, i'm actually single at the moment." he then went on telling mum how he's graduated, moved here with his family, just bought a house in robertson, etc. mum looks at us (the girls) expectantly.

mum cracks me up big time. she's just soo cheeky. same with dad. *sobs* im sooo gonna miss them. :( - and we didnt even get to take a family picture with all 5 of us together!!

p.s: united is playing villareal at 4.30am on SBS. ronaldo is apparently back from his injury, so this could be his first match this season! "to watch or not to watch"; that is the question. hmm.

i miss mum and dad already!! *SOBS*

.more silly vids from sheldon st!.

i need to stop with these silly videos!
now no one is gonna think i'm sane anymore!

but aaaanyway...
was gonna make a trip to the bisbane powerhouse to checkout a couple of indie singer songwriters today; but... got lazy. HAHA.

ended up doin lunch with the family, and spending the rest of the day with dvds and silly videos and of course... the girls. :) - oohh... sherman was with us too. u'd be able to tell from the vid. ;) he made us dinner too.. :) i ate everything but the green stuff. *bleah*


anywayz,
i've gots an interview tomoz at the city. gonna start part-timing for extra pocket money again. ;) can u see me selling jewelleries? ;) im excited regardless! shud be fun!

MU's first match tonite!! 1am!!!
a new season babyyy and already one title in the bag! ;)
GLORY GLORY UNITED!!!!

so, how've u been? ;)

xox

.lousy news.

.wft?.

.we'll hav a double please? - thank you!.

GLORY GLORY

MANCHESTER UNITED!

my house went off this morning!
sheena shud be able to tell...
im sure she wished she could shoot us all.
haHaa sorry babyy!!

i'm wearing the worst clothes-match at work today.
picture this -

my ronaldo jersey
my man utd scarf (thanks stan!!)
my working skirt
opaque panty hose
formal shoes

HAHA!
but it was good to step on the bus,
and hear people start talkin about the match.
im a walking MU billboard!!

Glory Glory!!
(aww... my boys are champs!)

.the moment has come.

guess what's happening at 4.30am tomorrow morn?
you bettter believe itttttttt............!!!
we're goin to moscowwww to become UEFA Champs!!!!

and chelskiii... u're going DOWN!!!
(i heard ashley cole is out... *fingers crossed*)

last match of the season guyssss...
GLORY GLORY UNITED!!!

VS

.intervention.

lol oszkar and elton...

and here i thought guys would choose to be oblivious to everything, rather than take matters (with girls) face on.


i lost my smile today, the guys at work noticed, and to my surprise, they cared. after 2 missed calls (one from each), i was face to face with both of them at the bench outside the griffith's graduate centre, experiencing what we decided to call "an intervention".


i owe them both hugs. i honestly do feel better. :)

ANYWAY...
today really should be a day to celebrate! :)
dont see why my recent "episode" should rain on this parade!
ladies and gentlemen... EPL's RIGHTFUL DEFENDING CHAMPS...

MANCHESTER UNITED!!!

pic from: http://cristianosantosronaldo.blogspot.com/