December 30, 2005

21st on the Chinese Calender!

According to the CHinese Calander,
Today is the 29th November...
hahHAHa so....
Technically, I'm 21 alreadddyyy!!!
Mum and Dad threw me a party and gave me a necklace with a key.
How sweet yeaA?!
My sweetest cousin sister baked me a cake, wrote those wonderful words on it, and also gave me a necklace!!
Today was a sweet day.
Dad called over a bunch of friends,
and everything was great.
Everyone seem to have had fun.
And I would say that includes Shaz.
Shaz said he might ask me to meet him at the city tomorrow.
He says he's got a birthday surprise for me.
I wonder?
We'll see!
ps: Dumb MU drew against Bermingham today. SHIT.

December 28, 2005

Down in the Pits

Before I start complaining about my day,
let me start this new entry by updating u guys on what happened on Xmas Eve.
Shaz made it afterall.
And truth to be told,
I was really impressed with him that night.
He sat right next to dad at the dining table,
Managed to carry a conversation with adults,
Not appear nervous one bit,
and was actually very sophisticated and polite.

*double thumbs up Shaz*
and a big kiss.

Although my parents didnt say much after,
I know they know he's a good guy.
Their only holdback is... well... simply becuz he's not chinese.

Amazing how talking about Shaz actually brightened up my day a little.
I've been really touchy.
Especially today.
Emotional and all.
I think its PMS.
Really. Its not an excuse.
You know...
It really bugs me how PMS makes me this way.
Its like...
During this period,
All my inner thoughts break loose...
Everything that I felt was "no biggie" suddenly becomes an excuse for me to blow my top.
Lose my cool.
I feel so foolish!

And you know what I realised?
At this very moment,
I wish Shaz was with me.
Don't know why but lately, I miss him alot.
I've been seeing him more than usual these few days,
But it only makes me miss him more.
Somehow it feels as if I've been away from him for far too long.
And after Jan,
I've got this big thing happening.
I wont be seeing Shaz for a month straight.
And that thought just burns a hole in my heart...

I swore I'd never let myself get so attached.
Now I find myself running to him as soon as danger strikes.
I'm turning into a needy loser...
aaH maNnn...
But Sherlene has never been NEEDY.

Maybe this is all just PMS talk.

Don't get me wrong,
Shaz is really important to me...
And when I tell him I love him...
I really mean it.
But I'm just not needy.
I'm not clingy either.
But now,
like... at this very moment,

December 24, 2005

Updated Plan

3 hours before dinner...
Shaz called telling me that he got into an accident.
Jeremy (his, Sherman and my friend) and him were trying to push his busted car down his driveway... (which was a really steep mini-hill)
And they planned that as the car is free falling down the hill,
Shaz would jump to the back of it to stop it.
Obviously it was a dumb thing to do.
And no surprise, they ended up with the result of that dumb decision.
His car is MORE than busted now.
But Thank God he isn't too badly injured.

So yeaa...
He called and said he might be late.
Late or not coming.

What I think?

As long as Shaz is still alive,
and there's no need for the ER...

Meeting the Parents

Shaz is coming over for a Xmas Eve dinner tonite.
Thats in... umm... 18 hours.
*fingers crossed*
But he'll be introduced as a friend...
So I guess that eases the nerves a little?

My prediction?

I'd say dad would use the opportunity to tease him.
Thats if he's not too busy with his own friends.
Mum would as usual be passing judgments on Shaz to me secretly when Shaz isn't around.

I'm guessing Shaz would be much more quiet than usual.
Probably until he starts playing PS2...
Or when Jeremy tease him or something.
But aside from that,
I'm guessing he'd probably be completely mute.
And I'm sure it wouldn't be hard to recognise his "uncomfortable" look.
lol I hope he'll be able to just be himself...
Cuz if he can manage that,
I'm sure everyone would love him.

As for me...
I'm guessing tomorrow I'd be like how I always am.
Extra polite in front of the older guests,
like daddy and mummy's friends...
(like always)
And I'd be like normal in front of others.
Cyrus would be coming over too.
So that'd be fun.

Did I mention that Cyrus and Shaz has never spoken to each other before?
They're so funny when put together...
No matter what, they dont talk to each other directly.
They'd rather keep passing messages from one to the other through either me or Selina...
hahHaa goofballs...

But nwayz,
I'm trying to decide how I should act when I'm with Shaz in front of my parents.
Should I make a mental note to avoid physical contact?
Not sit close?
I know I'd do the exact opposite of that.

Just watch.

December 22, 2005

Battery LOw...

As usual,
I just got off the phone with Shaz.
Actually, we got cut off...
Cuz my mobile went dead on me.

He did 95% of the talking tonite.
I feel really bad for him.
U see,
Mum arrived today and she's currently asleep in Sheena's room.
Dad on the other hand is sleeping in the guest room downstairs.
Which means,
I can't talk when I'm upstairs...
Nor can I talk when I'm downstairs...
Talk, as in, talk to Shaz.
And did I mention my parents are sleeping with their doors wide open?!
*pulls hair from head, hurting own scalp*
All I could manage was whispers.
Whispers that was barely audible.
So Shaz not only had to talk all the way...
He had to strain his ear to try to catch my muffled whispery replies.
I've really put Shaz in so much trouble.
I wonder why he sticks around... *sigh*
Truth to be told,
There's so many other girls out there.
Girls who would be dying to introduce Shaz to their parents.
Girls who could offer Shaz a clear and happy future together...
My point is,
He really doesn't need this from me.

My family... all 5 of us.. are back under one roof.
As much as I hate being away from Shaz,
I have to say I'm very excited to be with my family again~
Can't wait to do more catching up!
I even miss mum's naggings!!

Dad is definitely inviting his friends over for Xmas eve.
Today we were talking about it,
and dad said to ask Shaz to come over as well.
I told Shaz jez now...
He said he might have other plans.
But I'll live.
I wonder what we're doing for New Year?
And would I be able to kiss Shaz at 12am?

Im beat.
I'm so deprived of sleep, I could just die.
This morning I slept at almost 6am...
And dad woke me at 10am to tell me his friend was coming over.
And he was hoping I could probably clean the house a little.
So I got up and did just that.
After that,
I couldn't get back to sleep.
So yeaa... That was my sleep disaster.

Well... Its 3.11am now...
And I'm hitting the sack.
Lets see what time I NEED to get up tomorrow.
Wish me luck!!
I'm praying for at least 10am!!!!

ps: Man Utd is in the semis for the Carling Cup! YAY!

December 21, 2005

Being Random Again

Currently: Clean, tired and ready for bed.
Listening: Push the Button - Sugababes
Mood: not too happy. (no real reason)

Spoke to Shaz just before.
Its just something we always do.
As in, talk before going to bed.
Specifically, before "I" go to bed.
You should hear how he sounds when I call him at 5am,
cuz thats when I usually hit the sack,
and he'd be sounding all blurry and half-sleeping.

ANYWAY... here's more random thoughts.

# Mum's arriving tomorrow.
The family is gonna be together again!

# Shaz and I need to stop getting into heated discussions.
(I simply refuse to call them arguments) heheehe...
The thing is, its becoming something too frequent.
Everytime we talk, a "sensitive issue" would be brought up,
and one of us would end up getting all touchy,
and we'd both get into the "listen to me!" mood,
and start talking reli loud and sternly to each other...
Desperate to make one another understand.
Its always,
"listen to me first! thats not what I meant!!"
"Why do u have to think of it that way?! Thats not how I meant it!!"
aaH.... tiring!

# 24th December...
Xmas Eve.
Dad said he's asking a bunch of friends over.
And before that,
he mentioned of having a Xmas party.
Sorta like a get-together...
Does that mean we invite our friends too?
Does that mean Shaz comes over? *hmmm...*

# Shaz is reluctant to meet my parents.
He's got so many reason,
I refuse to even think about them anymore.
Then yesteday he said he'll meet them.
He said he thought about it and felt that he's being very unreasonable.
I guess I should feel glad huh?
I wonder how he'd act in front of my parents.
And I wonder which "Shaz" he'd decide to reveal?

# Fung jia got me a Birthday gift.
She's such a sweeety!
And I think mum and dad got me a gift from Msia too.
Dad sorta hinted that they got me a "key"...
U know, 21st Birthday sorta thing.
Can't believe this girl is turning 21 already.
Suddenly I feel so grown up.
Its been a longgg way Sherlene...
A long one indeed.

# How am I gonna talk to Shaz on the phone after mum gets here?
Cuz these few nights,
I've been making use of Sheena's room to talk.
When mum comes,
she might be sleeping there.
So where does that leave me?
to those of u who doesn't know...
I've been sleeping on sofas these couple of nights.
I dont have a room, and I've lost all privacy.
And don't know why,
I can't get myself to sleep in Sheena's room.
Maybe its becuz it feels kinda weird...
cuz.. well... cuz its not my room,
and I know very well its Sheena's.
HAHA... weird me.

# I dont wanna jinx, but Man Utd is back to winning.
Although we're heartbrokenly out of Europe,
becuz of that bloody Benfica match,
I'd say we might still have a shot at winning the premier league.
9 points separate Chelsea and Man Utd now.
And just an additional note to myself,
We can't count on Arsenal to help us rob Chelsea's points.
Simply cuz... from the looks of it...
Its pretty impossible.
Arsenal sucks.

# I'm so sleepy.
Why arent I sleeping?!

# Andy is so nice. I owe him so much.

# The Veronicas is a good group.
Their songs are pretty sweet.

# How to lose a guy in 10 days is such a great movie!!

# My mosquito bites itch like madddd!!!

# oKay... Im ready to zonk.


December 18, 2005


Dad's here.
Today aint that hot.
I miss Shaz.
I reli reli miss Shaz.

December 16, 2005

Random Thoughts. Random Me.

My mind is reeeling...
Despite me being in a fowl mood,
I can't help wanting to write down all the random things running tru my mind at the moment.
You'll see how random they are. Just read on.
  • I hate money problems.
  • I can't help feeling all fluttery when Iik Soon called from KK yesterday.
  • I wanna go back to Malaysia!! NOW!
  • I'm so tired.
  • I need to eat something sweet.
  • Remember to mop the floor tomorrow.
  • Yay! Dad's arriving tomorrow!
  • Darn.. I wont be able to see Shaz as much as usual after dad comes.
  • I'm so sticky. I need a bath.
  • I feel like answering a survey on friendster's bulletin.
  • Ouch... whats that pain in my neck?!
  • Whats Shaz doing?
  • Damn I'm so angry!
  • Do I want Shaz to call...?
  • I dont think I wanna talk on the phone.
  • Whats Shaz doing?
  • I feel so frustratedd!!!
  • Do I wanna watch Armageddon?
  • Ben Afflect.
  • Shit... My palms are peeling...
  • I'm sleepy.
  • Should I talk to Shaz before going to bed?
  • Damn... Need to go to Uni tomorrow.
  • Fcukin' review!! Just give me those extra marks already!!!
  • Damn.... I dun wanna re-sit.
  • I dont wanna make dad spend another $2000!
  • Xmas is almost here.
  • Need to wrap dad and mum's presents.
  • Why's my hair so oily?!
  • aaAhhh... My nails chipped!!!
  • Feel like playing guitar...
  • I hate money... or more like, NOT having money.
  • I hate people spending money recklessly.
  • I hate disappointing my parents.
  • Is my laptop reli ok? (kena hujan jez now)
  • Damn my malay sucks.
  • Did Fendy go out with Iik Soon again?
  • I miss Iik Soon.
  • Why do I miss Iik Soon?
  • Ivan is so annoying. In a good way.
  • I miss Ivan.
  • God, I need to bath.
  • Daddy arriving tomorrow!
  • I'm so confused.
  • Frustrated, and confused.
  • *now I feel like screaming*
  • Ok. Shower time.


Pissed. So Pissed.

Its been 12 days since my last entry...
I'm not sure if now is a good time to write,
becuz I'm feeling kinda bummed.

Today has been kinda rough.
It started out alritee...
But now, I'm in the pits.
Been feeling this way since Shaz, Selina and I came home from PickNPay.
Shaz brought up this issue about "something" that just totally made me blew my top.
Its not Shaz's fault...
Altho it partly is, becuz he did bring it up and wouldnt let the topic go!
Selina and I cleaned the entire house today.
Dad is arriving tomorrow and we wanna give him a good impression of the house.

I just can't seem to shake off this feeling.
This feeling of annoyance and anger.

I guess its a good thing I can be alone tonite.
Cuz Shaz's car is busted.
So I guess there's no point asking him to come over.
Besides, I dont know how I'd react to him.
Not sure if I'm capable of acting like I'm fine...
I'm just gonna go watch Armageddon (sp?) and use that as a reason to cry.

Irresponsible, inconsiderate, immature, selfish and mindless people pisses me off!

December 4, 2005

29th November 05


29th November 2005...
The Southside of Brisbane HAILED.
Which meant...
It hailed where I stayed.
It was a cool experience...
Frightening but Cool.
Check out the pics:

A Bump On The Road

3rd December 2005...
Dad turned 54.
Sheena turned 19.
My family and Sheena's family had dinner together.
I wish I was there.

4th December 2005...
I was sleeping soundly in my room downstairs.
Dreamt of Ronaldo.
It was a really great dream.
Aside from the part where I dreamt I cheated on Shaz with Ronaldo.
Shaz, if you're reading this...
Don't worry. I wont!
(Cuz I can't) hahaHaa... *jk*

Sherman woke me with an urgent knock on my door.
His first words were:
"Results are out."
My heart sank.
Simply cuz I knew I will be failing one unit for the first time after 2 years into my 4 year course.
I'm not bragging... Its just,
I've kept a clean sheet since day one of my course.
And 2 years (4 semesters) into it...
I knew I was gonna hit a bump.

I ran upstairs.
Logged on to QUT Virtual.
Saw my results and... Turned Pale.

I saw the sacred number.
...... 2....... Indicating a FAIL.
The other three units...
3...4... and a 5.
But the twist was,
the 4 (pass) was that dumb unit I swore I would have failed!!!
Which meant, I failed something I totally would not have expected to!!!

*turned pale-r*

I passed Trust even higher than my Aus. Fed. Constitutional Law!
But thats a good thing, don't get me wrong.
But that 2!!!!

I had MOST confidence in that paper GADAMMIT!!

Time to call Dad and to tell him...
"Dad... I've hit a bump."