.a song for right now.

i was telling julia tonight how i havent really broke down and cry since he left. we then concluded, there shall come a day when the floodgates will be opened and everything would come crashing down.

yippee. imagine my joy and anticipation...

then i heard this old delta goodrem song on my mp3. i only just updated my song list and had chucked a dozen of older songs in there. this was one of them...

... definitely not a good idea. 2 words. breaking point.

***

if it's okay

i'll leave the bed light on,

and place your water glass where it belongs;

and if it's alright

i'll lie awake at night,

pretending i am curled up at your side...

see i'm circling in these patterns

living out of memories;

i'm still a long way from accepting it

that there's just no you and me...

but if i still believe you love me,

maybe i'll survive;

so i tell myself you're coming home,

like you've done a million times;

and if it's alright,

i'll still be loving you...

'cause i can't break it to my heart...

***