."can i help you with anything else?".

I felt something odd while I was working tonite.

Like all Sundays,
It was a busy night.
And almost towards the end of my shift,
A bunch of young people (about my age) came to buy gelato.

While they were busy ordering,
I carried a dessert crepe out to one of the tables.
As I was making my way back,
One girl (from the bunch) stopped me and said:
"can u clean those tables?"

And of course,
I replied, "Sure."

But it was at that moment when I really felt like a worker.
As in... u knoww.... a worker.

sigh.
I cant put in words how I felt.
It just felt weird.

Its like,
when you go to a restaurant,
You dont really think of the person who carries your food or takes your plates away.
Cuz they're just... Not important.
Close to non-existence, until u need something.

Its like...
You're treated like u're nobody.
You're just someone to clean messes.
Someone who doesn't matter...

ok ok...
I guess you can say I felt like a maid.
Hmm...
Thats stretching it a bit,
But it's something like that.

I KNOW thats my job.
Im not complaining.
I'm just saying...
After working there for so long,
For the first time...
I actually felt like a... nobody.

"Clean my table."
"Take this away."

Hmm...
Maybe it's becuz they were having lots of fun,
and I was jealous.
HAHAA...

But yea,
I just thought I'd write this down,
Becuz I didn't know that all this while...
I've always seen myself as "the girl who serves gelato."
Not one who gets ordered by random people to do/clean/fix things.
(my boss is not counted)

Hmmm...
Its okie if you think I'm being paranoid,
Or that I sound like a spoilt brat,
I'm just trying to share this feeling.

.beautiful music.

My current favourite song: I Sing For You
Performed by: Daniel Letterle
OST: Camp (2003)

I sing for you and only you
Wherever I go I find you
You’re in the sound of every hello
In everything I do
You’re the song I was destined to know
And I only sing for you

You went away. I should have known
You leave so many dreams behind you
Thought I’d be fine just being alone
I didn’t have a clue
But my heart had a mind of its own
And would only sing for you

You’re in the sound of the rain
Clouds in a winter sky
In a thousand unsaid words
In a thousand crazy reasons why
You were meant to fly

So fly for me and day by day
I’ll keep hoping your heart reminds you
Nothing but love can stand in our way
But love can see us through
Maybe that’s all I wanted to say
I will always sing for you
I will always sing for you

*sigh*
a very simple,
but very beautiful song...

.my DVD marathon.

Yesterday,
I went to bed at 8am.
I was up watching DVDs.
I managed to watch 3 in total.

All 3 were great.

One of them,
"Head over heels"
Starring Freddie Prinze Jr and Monica Potter,
That one I've actually watched before...
But I borrowed it from Blockbuster again cuz I saw the DVD on Big W's catalouge,
and its on sale!!
I've decided to get it.
HAHA...

Then I watched "Camp".
This movie was different.
BUT I kinda enjoyed it..
Maybe its becuz of the music.

I totally fell for Daniel Letterle when he started singing a song called
"I sing for you"...
He's no professional singer,
But the simplicity of the song bought my heart.
aaand...
Maybe it sounded extra good becuz of him.
*ehem ehem*
U knoww...
Its a gurl thing. ^^



THEN I watched "The Cutting Edge: Going for the Gold"
This was a sequel from 'The Cutting Edge'.
I've never watched the first one,
But I know it was about the parents of the girl in this 2nd one.

And the sweet bit was,
They actually casted the original parents.

I loved this movie the most among the 3.
It was great...
Loveddd the love story.
Loved the characters...
Loved the guy. HAHA...





Tip to directors:
A charming leading man can never go wrong!!

.a question for bloggers.

Do u sometimes think of something,
Or happen to learn something,
Or noticed something,
And you make a mental note to yourself, saying:

"Im gonna write this in my blog."

But when you finally get in front of a comp,
and is all ready to type a new entry...
You go blank?

(.Thats my current state. Sigh.)

.mariah carey's glitter.

Last nite,
I took a break after hours of working on my assignment!
I spent 100 minutes watching Mariah Carey's "Glitter".

I know it's quite an old movie,
But I never got to watch it.
Heard people dissing it though.

After watching it,
My comment...
Well...
They're right about MC not being able to act.
There were many scene where she could have put on better expressions and etc.
And I didn't really feel her during the climax of the movie.

BUT...
She was cute,
I enjoyed listening to her voice,
She truly has an awesome one-in-a-million type of voice!
(although the songs were not too impressive
- except "never too far" of course)
But most of all,
I enjoyed the story.

It had a touching love story,
and a realistic touch to the life in the music business.
At least thats what I could imagine happening.
I enjoyed watching the life of a rising star...
How they grow and change...
How they try to manage their love life,
and cope with a shadowed boyfriend...
How they compose and record music...
How music can bring two people together...

But yea..
All in all,
I enjoyed it.
MC could have acted better,
But it was a good effort on her first try in acting.

*thumbs up*

btw,
GUYS... BE WARNED.
This is 100% a Chick Flick.

.girls love attention.

Admit it gurls...
We all love some attention, don't we?
Whether we're single or taken...
When guys turn their heads when we walk by,
We feel great. ^^

Well I recently noticed how powerful 'cleavage' can be.
Im not calling any guys perverts or anything,
Cuz it's natural to want to look.
Even I look. (no... Im not gay)
And hey,
The best thing about the cleavage power is,
You dont even have to be pretty.
(I suppose thats why it works for me)

All you need is a top with a low neckline.
The top can be as simple as a spegetti strap top,
and you're ready to go!
(dont wear anything too slutty,
unless thats the look you're trying to achieve)
I personally think,
The simpler the better...
Makes it look like you're not even trying.

ooH...
and of course,
You'll need a bra that can squish u up a little bit.

But be warned!
The downside of all this is that you may attract some not so attractive attention.
I'm not saying the guy are unattractive,
But I'm referring to the guys who "Stares"...
Im serious!
SOme guys just stands there and stare at your boobs!
Especially at bus stops and when you're in the bus!!
NO SHAME!!

SO yeaa...
If you dont mind that,
Block those no-shame weirdos out,
and walk out there to turn some heads!
ooH... and if possible,
Put on some heels.
They shud be our best friends...

ooH... and one more thing,
When you do turn heads,
Dont get all stuck up,
and start showing your "I-know-Im-so-pretty" face...
Guys get turned off when girls walk around thinking they're so bloody cute.
Just try to keep a neutral look,
DONT smile at the "starers"...!!
It'll make them come up and start lame-arse convos with you,
when all they're thinking of is you, Naked.
(very stereotypical of me... but most of the times, it's true!!)

But anyway,
5 seconds of attention from random guys everywhere you walk..
Not too bad rite?
After all,
Every girls deserve to know that some guys out there (other than their boyfriend)still thinks they're hot.

By the way,
This was the top I wore today:
(I wonder what you'd notice first)

.mahfuz mat yaacob.

The guy who use to be Mine.

I've been thinking about Mahfuz alot lately.
I can't believe it's been 5 years since I last saw him.
He was my every heartbeat when I was 16...
The guy I call my First Love.

*warm and fuzzY*


























I suddenly felt the urge to find him...
To find out how he's doing and what he's up to.

I did a search of his name on Yahoo.
Found a webbie his classmate in Ipoh made up.
There was a class picture.
And yes,
There he was...
Standing there,
Looking goofy as always.

It made my heart sore.
I really do miss him.
And I really do look forward to the day when I get to see him again.
I wonder how that would be.

I always imagine it to be really sweet.
Both of us would take one look at each other,
and recall the wonderful times we shared,
and regretting all the dreams we never got to fulfil.

Then again,
I'm probably the only person who thinks of it that way.
I'm guessing that to him,
I'm just "one of the girls" he use to date.

But I guess that doesn't matter,
Cuz all I know is that...
Mahfuz left a permanent footprint in my heart.
And he'll always mean alot to me.

I just wish we had better closure.
So that everytime he comes to mind,
I dont have to always think of "What If"...

Maybe if we had better closure,
My heart would finally heal...
And It'll release me from all that pain,
And finally allow me to truly love again?

*YES. I AM A DRAMA QUEEN.*

.sigh.

I think SUmmer is here.
How do I know?

The friggin' cockroaches and spiders are coming out.

ARGH!!!

Sigh.
I miss daddy. :(

(that has nothing to do with summer,
roaches or spiders. I just miss him)

Sigh.
I'm unhappy at work.
I dont mind being bitched about,
But I hate being bitched at.

Sigh.
Assigmment due on Thursday.
I've not started...
Im so dead.
Where did my holiday go?!
It's Monday already?!?!!?!