.3 in 1 dream.

I forced myself out of bed to type this entry,
because I had just awaken from a weird dream.
Some parts of it are still so clear in my mind...
Parts that are rather disturbing.

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I dreamt that it was a few days before Groovy was suppose to leave.

I was planning a reunion party for my All Saints bunch.

It was to be held in an odd looking field,

which in my dream belonged to Tshung Tsin.

I dreamt Selina drove me there in a MANUAL car.

(she cant even maneuver an auto)

We drove through a small winding side-of-mountian-like road.

She parked us in front of a pizza joint.

Derek, Ivan, Aaron Prabha, Chang, Jonny Roy and Carlos were there.

I was very excited to see them.

Jonny Roy tried to be funny with my car.

I glared at him,

and he put his hands behind his back and tried to act like nothing happened.

I remember asking Derek to help me call Groovy on his mobile.
G's phone was switched off.
Derek looked at me sympathetically.
I sighed.

*opened my eyes briefly and checked the time*

When I closed my eyes,

I felt my dream resumed.

Suddenly my dream jumped into a really odd place.

I dreamt I was diagnosed with stomach cancer.

I cried like crazy.

Groovy came to comfort me.

I cried in his arms.

I also remember sitting on his lap as he held me.

He then told me that he was leaving the next day.

I cried even more.

Then he sent me to the reunion again.

I remembered the same exact small winding up-mountian road.

Me and Selina was in the car, going together.

When I got off the car,

I gave him a peck on his lips and said I'll see him later.
I kept calling him after that,
But my calls couldn't get through.

*briefly wakes up - then closed my eyes again*

Back in my dream, I was walking aimlessly.

It was then I received a call from Groovy.

He told me he was at the airport about to leave.

He was with Sharon. (His ex)

I was stunned becuz he was leaving already,

and I wasn't at the airport to see him off.

I got mad and shouted at him.

He kept saying its not a big deal.

I got even more pissed.

Then, in the middle of sobs,

I tried to the recall the last time I saw him.

I felt hopeless becuz I couldn't..

I was so depressed becuz I didn't get to say Goodbye face to face.

And he was gone.

*I wake up*