yesterday i caught myself thinking...
"if he knows my relationship history, he should know that i'm doing and giving so much more than i use to. hence, he should feel lucky and shouldn't expect too much of me."
but really... what bullshit.
fact is, he has all the rights to expect the most from me, if not all that i have... because ultimately, its for "our relationship".
regardless of how my past use to be, fact is, if i've made that decision to be with him, how dare i ask for concessions on how much i feel i can or should give? especially when its made in comparison to what i had given someone else before. shame on me!
rather, i should be feeling that i want to give him all i can... in fact, i should especially want to give him more than what i've given someone else before if i truly want him, and "us" to work. and really, he shouldn't have to settle for or tolerate anything less.
... and if u (u being anyone who has thoughts like the above) think thats unfair to u and honestly feel u can't possibly give as much as u know u can and should because of your past or personality or whatever and thinks he's not being understanding, i think it really means u're not ready to be in a relationship. especially if your counterpart is already ready to give his/her all.
bottom line... either don't be broken or don't waste anyone's time.